home....calling

I bought pink roses today. I needed some life in my basement. Something beautiful to look at. The sun has shone for three days. God is spoiling me I think.

He does that a lot. Spoils me.

And sometimes He doesn't. Sometimes He grows me instead. Sometimes He lets hard things happen. Sometimes we don't grow, sometimes we die a little. Shrink away from what we could be. Sometimes it's hard to feel Him. Sometimes life is really heavy.

All times He is there.

Life is so unpredictable. When I'm empty, He takes. When I'm unstable, He shakes. When life is quiet, He makes it loud. When it's calm, He stirs.
When I break, He holds me. When I cry, He loves me. And when I'm sad, He sends the sun.

I think I love Him more deeply when it's hard. I think I love people more when it's heavy. Life. That's when I realize that I need them. And Him. Sometimes I really miss feeling home. I think I'll always be missing it a little. Because I'm not sure that we ever really are at home. I think what I'm missing is heaven.


Yeah you give up some days
When the tears they must flow
But God is always your strength

The only strength that you know
Now everything starts to fall in place

As you wake just to crawl
Still you say good morning after all
Yeah you stand just to fall
Still you say good morning after all

Yeah you questioned this life
Sure you wondered about love
But you swear there's always hope
Always hope from above
Now everything starts to fall into place


It's just another breath
It's just another breath you say
It's just another step
It's just another step today

-Collective Soul