I am not one of those girls who ran away from home to spread my wings and find myself. I didn't have a childhood that left me talking about injustice for years afterward. I left behind a happy, good place.
And I found another one here. Sometimes I feel a bit lost and fed up, but usually I understand that this is another part of His kingdom and that there is good here.
Yesterday was hard because I had to drop my mom off and I am awful at goodbyes. It was just nice to say good morning and I love you for a week. I forgot how much we need those words. And there's something great about not hearing them over a static-y phone. Something really great.
On my way away from her, I was doing really well. Until I got to the exit ramp and I saw the homeless man standing next to me holding his cardboard sign. He looked at me and I smiled and that's when two escaped. And then more fell quickly, silently. And he lowered the sign and the concern I saw in his eyes undid the rest of me.
My kids slip a lot and call me mom. We spend time together and their words get confused. They don't know it, but they are my little family here. Sometimes I dread 3:00.
Today is March 1st and for that I am glad. February seems to be hardest. Today is beautiful. Beautiful days make me feel less alone. And so today is good.
i feel a little guilty, but i secretly love it when i'm summoned with the word "mommy!"
ReplyDeletei want someone to share my pot of coffee with me at 5:30 in the morning. that would make a good morning.
I'm sharing my coffee with Need to Breath and it is making all of the difference.
ReplyDeleteI agree -- the static-y phone is the pits. Are you sure you don't want to apply at Trinity????? I'd volunteer one morning a week! :)
ReplyDeleteLove ya,
Mom
I'm glad you had a beautiful day :)
ReplyDeleteThank you :)
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