I am completely buried in school.

So what am I doing?

Taking a trip to the twin cities.  Running far away to celebrate a friend's graduation.  Maybe it will inspire me.  Maybe not.

Yesterday was beautiful and I spent the whole day in the classroom and the library.  I wanted to crawl out the window and slide down the wall.  But it is very important that I learn about Wordsworth and Lyrical Ballads.  And what would I do without Morphology.  What would I do.

I'll tell you what I would do.

I'd go lay in the grass.  And find shapes in the clouds.  And not wear shoes.

Last night I watched the Yankees and the Huskers at the same time.  On two different tvs.  With mac and cheese and dr pepper and abbie.  Well, I watched commercials while she yelled at her boys.

We are great at balancing each other.

We took a walk during half time.  And we ranted about the joys, the evils, the unknowns of being single women.  About how we have to shave our legs and rock cute clothes and figure out how to interpret texts and messages and pokes.  And how we can change our own oil.  Sell a car.  Travel.  Clean up children's messes. 

She just signed up to foster parent.  I'm looking for a group of high school girls to mentor.  We want to go to Greece when I graduate. 

And we agree on this.  We are so very tired of people telling us to wait.  To be patient.  That God will answer our desires.  Yeah?  Is that what it takes?

Then cross me off that list.  I don't need to wait.  God has a will for me now.  I am great in Him and I have great things to do.  Don't try to fix my aloneness.  Don't give me a solution to my problem.  Be happy for me.  Be crazy happy for me.

Because I am doing things now that I wouldn't be able to do.  I am blessed you see.

Blessed.

Sometimes I just need to vent.  To be heard and then to be told simply this:  You're right.  That does sound confusing.  And frustrating.  


That's all.  And then I will go on and on.  About all the people that He has given me to love.  About how cute my kids are that I get to take care of.  And about the drive I took last night and the way the stars were so bright.