I went out of town to see an old friend this weekend and it was nice, very nice.  We talked about life and how it feels so terribly hard right now.  She laughed at me because I couldn't stop smiling while I was talking.  I told her that I am just so excited.  Because I am really struggling right now and I grow the most when I struggle.  He's knocking the dust off of me, cleaning me out, shaking my foundation and it can only work together for good.

I am supposed to speak to a class on Tuesday at my old university.  I am supposed to talk about life and how to make it, how to use the school years for good.  I am not sure what I will say, I am unsure of so many things these days.

Today I was asked to help lead a trip to the islands, to help lead high schoolers out of this country.  Lead?  But I would very much love to follow.

He asks us to do great things, not when we're whole and put together, but when we finally see that we need Him, desperately we need Him.  When we finally realize that He is truth and that truth is the beginning of everything.

I am not sure how to do Tuesday.  I am not sure how to get out of bed most mornings.  I am not sure how to guide young people through the summer. 

But I am so sure of Him.