I won't lie and say that marriage is the most glamorous or the most perfect or the easiest thing that has taken hold of my life but I will say this:  there are gems of moments alongside struggling, wrestling moments and the contrast between the two--that space, it opens to a clearing of rioting beauty and the senseless glory of forgiveness married to enduring commitment.  And so in the midst of rubbing souls and sins and humanity, it becomes breathtaking.