skin relief

They say that darkness doesn't exist, that only absence of light does. And that cold doesn't exist, just absence of heat. I wonder if it's true for loneliness. That it doesn't exist. Absence of unity with God does. And I wonder if in this life we will always have a trace of loneliness somewhere in us, even in those moments when we are most content. When we are most connected and together and with.

Maybe we will never truly be without that feeling until we are at His feet, in His presence, with Him in His world. In His perfect world, where ours can't get in the way. It's true that He's here, that He walks with us, lives in us, guides us. But we are still so human here. And our eyes and ears and heart don't work very well. They still fail us, we still fail Him. Maybe when we get there our hearts will just about burst with how not alone we feel.

Maybe that's why we have such a strong craving for community built into us. Because we aren't completely satisfied here. Because we've fallen from unity, from walking with Him, to stumbling along in this broken world. I wonder what Adam and Eve went through. With that transition. I wonder how they coped with losing that intimacy. And I wonder if they ever forgot. How it was with Him. I wonder if we still feel that, if it's been passed down. That faint memory of what it must be like. To really be with Him.

Song of Songs 3

"All night long on my bed
I looked for the one my heart loves;
I looked for him, but did not find him.

I will get up now and go about the city,
through its streets and squares;
I will search for the one my heart loves.
So I looked for him, but did not find him.

The watchmen found me
as they made their rounds in the city,
'Have you seen the one my heart loves?'

Scarcely had I passed them
when I found the one my heart loves.
I held him and would not let him go."